Hi there everyone. Madame President, Toastmaster officers, members and visitors. My name is Dee and welcome to my Toastmasters Ice Breaker Speech.
By a show of hands, who here is really excited to be here tonight with no where that you’d rather be? Sweet. Well, there’s no where that I would rather be at this moment and I believe there are no coincidences. No coincidence that we are all here together in this room tonight, affecting, changing, bettering each others’ lives. I’m really jazzed to be at a point in my life where I’m trying to better myself, and with the ripple down effect, better those who enter my “Dee Bubble”.
When I took a speech class in college I was mortified. I couldn’t get my body to stop shaking and almost made myself sick with fear prior to giving my speech. I had memorized all the pages of my speech, vomited it out, and didn’t know what the heck I had said when all was said and done. I know I want to speak more naturally today and to be myself with rigorous honesty.
Speaking about rigorous honesty, that is one of the lessons I learned once I got sober. It’s very freeing to be just who I am today, even when I make a fool of myself, and, yet, be okay with that. That’s a great gift I’ve received in sobriety, the gift of finally feeling comfortable in my own skin and being all right just knowing that I’ve done my best. I never had this mindset before, when I was active in my disease of people-pleasing and low self-esteem. With that I can now talk in front of a group of people and not be shaking in my skin, ready to puke my guts out. Because if you don’t like me, that’s okay. I don’t take it personally; that’s not my purpose.
Crazy how that happened. Again, no coincidences that I’ve been provided a journey through life to bring me from a deep, dark place of self-loathing and self-hatred to a place of self-respect and self-worth.
So what am I doing here in Toastmasters? Well, I’ve always loved to write and am now just experiencing my love of speaking. This love has awarded me opportunities in the AA community to be of service the Coconut Wireless Newsletter for 3 years, writing about AA events on this side of the island and then as the Public Information Chairperson and speaking at our local DUI classes is part of that commitment and had become one of my new passions.
That is how I got here. My new drug of choice is sharing my experience, strength and hope with others hoping that one person will get one thing from my share that will spark a ray of hope and optimism in his or her life. A message of comfort that no one is ever alone on their journey through life, no matter what’s going on, and together we can get through any and everything. And it’s okay to take off our big girl panties and ask for help. Not only should we shed the useless bullshit that has inundated our lives from the moment we were born that does not serve us as moral human beings, but we should shed any guilt and shame we might have put on our shoulders and have been carrying around with us for way too long. That is why I’m here. To gain experience on how to share this message.
Today I have an online shop where I sell my Art with a Message of Hope and Inspiration. I also sell at the Pure Kona Green Market every Sunday down in Captain Cook. And as I drive there early on Sunday morning I am grateful for the prosperity I shall be receiving that day, not in terms of financial reward, but in terms of the wonderful interactions I shall have with like-minded caring and loving individuals who enter my “Dee Bubble”. I have never gone home disappointed.
However, last year I started to wonder if sharing my experience, strength and hope was being satisfied with one weekly market and social interaction. That is when the thought of being a Ted Talker or an AA Circuit Speaker entered my mind. I put it in my God Box because today I have faith and don’t have to know where I’m going. I just know it feels right and I shall just concentrate on carrying the message to DUI classes, schools, and whatever local organizations are interested. With that, I joined Toastmasters so that I can do my best to serve my Higher Powers’ purpose of sharing my experience, strength and hope. Today I am humble…and I am grateful.
Thank you for being part of my journey and helping me to Share My Message. With warmest aloha, Dee Harris
If you are interested in my Art with a Message of Hope and Inspiration, please visit my website at http://www.DeesignsByHarris.com. And if you would like to see this blog on video, please visit me on YouTube at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E7dkpopPjss. Mahalo and enjoy!